Woke up at 4:42am and couldn't get back to sleep as my head was busy making lists of things I need to do today, and things I need to pack. Finally got up around 6 and have actually started writing those things down. I'm thinking I'll use our dining room table as a sort of packing staging area so I can see that I have everything together before I start shoving shit in bags and have the inevitable "wait, did I already pack that?" moment.
List of things I need to do today is unfortunately long. Between my natural penchant for procrastination and my being pretty terribly ill for a few days, a lot has gotten shoved to the last minute. But, maybe that's for the best. Maybe keeping busy will help to occupy my mind, keep me from getting bogged down in fear/anxiety etc.
Having a lot of "this is my last time for a long time doing..." moments.
Last early morning with my tea on the couch.
Tonight will be my last night sleeping next to someone.
My last dinner at home.
Last opportunity to text about a billion people.
Lots of thoughts and realizations like those.
Tickets were purchased a long time ago. I've booked the hotel now for my first night there, and arranged to get picked up from the airport (despite the fact that it costs... 7x as much as the bus. What can I say, I just don't want another thing to be nervous about the first few hours there). I'm all set up with two farms who are expecting me for the dates arranged...
And it *still* doesn't feel real.
Take a deep breath and remember you are doing this as a growth experience. If it weren't difficult, there would be no growth.
ReplyDeleteChip took the words right outta my mouth. I guess that leaves me with, "ditto."
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